JOURNAL
A space for stories, reflection and real conversation.
Through the M.Y.H x Journal, Jade Blue and guest voices explore the challenges shaping our world - from injustice and inequality to gender-based violence and the systems around us. Grounded in lived experience and honest insight, these pieces are here to provoke thought, shift perspective, and open up conversations that lead to change.
Inside the Justice System
A reflection on what it really means to navigate the justice system - the endurance it takes, the gaps it reveals, and why speaking out matters. Because when voices come together, change becomes possible, and fewer people have to go through it alone.
A Decade of Stalking and Control
Ten years of being tracked, controlled, and isolated.
This survivor account shows how stalking can begin early, escalate behind closed doors, and shape daily life in ways that are hard to see from the outside - and even harder to escape.
I Thought It Would Break Me
I walked into a pub and came face to face with the person who raped me - a moment I’d feared for years, unsure whether it would undo the work it’s taken to get here. Remarkably, it didn’t break me.
I Survived The Crime But The System Broke Me
This is a deeply personal account of what it means to seek justice - and what happens when the system cannot hold that weight. Georgie shares the reality of delay, trauma, and the lasting impact of being let down by the very process meant to protect.
In Whose Eyes Is the Offender Innocent?
A MYH x Journal submission - an Australian experience of process over protection, and harm that continued beyond the court.
This submission examines how decisions made by police, prosecutors, and the courts prioritised procedure over safety, allowing harm to continue long after sentencing.
You’re Special
This feature documents a survivor’s experience of childhood sexual abuse and the wider pattern of harm surrounding it. Rather than focusing on one act of violence, it examines grooming, community complicity, and the cultural mechanisms that protect abusers. Shared as part of Make Yourself Heard, this testimony aims to raise awareness, support survivors, and challenge the systems that enable abuse to persist.
A 2020 Post, Revisited
Five years ago, as I moved into 2021, I wrote this without knowing how long the road ahead would be. I knew I was angry. I knew I wanted change. I knew silence wasn’t an option anymore.
The rape happened in 2017. But 2020 was the worst year of my life.
From Injustice to Impact
20th October 2020.
The day my life turned upside down.
I remember sitting in a meeting room at the police station, waiting for an update I had been anticipating for years. After nearly three and a half years of waiting, I thought I was finally about to go to court. Instead, I heard a word I had never come across before: sexsomnia.
That was the first time I heard it - in that room, from the Crown Prosecution Service.
Not Until It Happens Again
This submission shook me.
A woman reached out to Make Yourself Heard and described an experience that no one should ever have to endure. She was pregnant when her ex-partner attacked her. During the same violent incident, he beat and strangled his own 18-month-old son. The assault was recorded on her home security system. There is footage. He pleaded guilty.
And yet, today, he is seeking custody of the son, whom he strangled. And of the baby she was still carrying when he attacked her.
His Rights, My Prison
The joy I should be feeling, loving my life and cherishing my family, all turns to horror scenarios flashing through my nightmares when a letter from the Witness Care team lands on my hall floor…repeatedly in the three years since my abuser has been in prison, this has been the case.
I didn’t set out to be a victim of domestic abuse; I didn’t intend to be a prisoner and not a partner for ten terror-filled years, but the shackles of control and coercion sneak slowly around your life until, before you know it, you're contemplating death as your only means of escape.
Fighting for Accountability
The police complaints process can often feel like a labyrinth, fraught with obstacles, delays, and a pervasive sense of impersonal bureaucracy. For individuals seeking justice, this journey can be emotionally taxing and frustrating.
Charlotte's experience serves as a critical case study, shedding light on the intricacies of this system, revealing the challenges faced by those seeking accountability, and highlighting areas for improvement.
Finding My Voice
My journey toward hope and empowerment began when fate brought me into contact with an extraordinary journalist. This encounter was somewhat serendipitous, taking place on a September afternoon in 2019, nearly two and a half years after I reported being raped. While cleaning the windows of my flat and tuning into BBC Radio 4's Woman's Hour, I stumbled upon an interview featuring Claire Waxman, the Victim's Commissioner for London.
The Sexsomnia Loophole
In the labyrinthine UK justice system, some legal defences are so unusual that they seem almost surreal. “Sexsomnia” - a rare sleep disorder that allegedly causes people to engage in sexual acts while unconscious - is one of them.
Once confined to obscure medical journals, sexsomnia has entered both criminal and family courts with alarming frequency.
Survivor vs System
The path to justice for victim-survivors of sexual violence is not only fraught with challenges but often feels like an uphill battle. A report from Victim Support, "Suffering for Justice," highlights just how deeply flawed the criminal justice system is when it comes to handling sexual violence cases.
Sex, Trauma and Healing
Sex after rape is one of the most complex and deeply personal journeys a survivor can face. It’s not just about physical intimacy - it’s about reclaiming a sense of control, safety, and self-worth in a body that may feel like it has been taken away. For those in long-term relationships, this journey involves personal healing and shared understanding with a partner. For those dating after experiencing trauma, it adds a new layer of vulnerability and navigation.